lucymorningstar: (Fluffy)
I think Mark Hamill's tweet sums up my feelings perfectly


Dec. 23rd, 2016 06:40 pm
lucymorningstar: (Elephant)
Other than a lot of Christmas music - both carols and pop music - I seem to have been listening to a lot of classic rock and oldies this month. It's been a very bizarre mixture.

Christmas music wise from classical to Mariah Carey, The Pogues, Wham!, Wizzard, Slade, Chris Rea, Band Aid, Cliff Richard, Mud, Boney M, Jona Lewie, Shakin' Stevens, Paul McCartney, Elvis, Bing Crosby, Doris Day, Frank Sinatra, East 17.

And then the non-Christmas music has been a lot of The Eagles, Deep Purple, The Doors, Bobby Darin, Connie Francis, The Everley Brothers, Bill Haley...

I definitely have an eclectic taste in music, that's for sure!
lucymorningstar: (Lucifer)
I'm starting to think about my goals for January, about what I want to achieve.

The main thing will be finding a new routine with J being home all the time, him working out what he's going to do and me learning to work around him being here. He's good at understanding I have a routine and I'm hoping he's not going to interrupt.

I want to find a proper blogging and commenting schedule.

I want to do a full de-clutter of the house... sort out things like paperwork, clothing, towels, bedding etc. All the little things that keep getting forgotten. Start the new year with a good clear out.

I want to read one book.
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I am currently stretched out on the sofa, listening to George Michael singing Last Christmas. I have the house to myself - J&S are at work and I've finished all my chores for the day so I have the afternoon to do as I please. I'm warm, the fire is on and Odin is stretched out asleep in front of it. He's dreaming, back legs twitching and making some interesting noises. Aslan is curled up on my feet and Jadis is on the back of the sofa. They're both asleep too.

I keep trying to read but I'm finding myself far too easily distracted for that. I'm thinking of maybe joining them in a nap. But I'm also tempted to put on a movie - Harry Potter, maybe - or get out the cards and play some solitare.
lucymorningstar: (McKay)
I know 2016 has been a... difficult year for the world in general. There's been a lot of loss of celebrity, a lot of political unrest and upheaval. But personally, I've had a really good, really postive year.

I've found new hobbies to enjoy. I've found a routine that works for me. I've found a medication/therapy regimen that is working for me and providing me with some stability. I'm loved. I'm health. I'm happy.

There's some big changes at home happening soon with J retiring - I'm nervous but also confident it will all work out.

Overall, I'm really looking forward to 2017
lucymorningstar: (Elephant)
It would appear that every post I've made in the last month I've managed to set as keeping private rather than public/showing everyone. I am such an idiot. I'm going to go through them and change the visibility so I'm sorry if I end up flooding your flists!

In other news, it's Saturday, it's raining and I've got an upset stomach. S is feeling queasy too so we don't know if it's a bug or something we ate last night. J's gone and done grocery shopping, got us both some ginger tea and now we're curled up watching the new Lethal Weapon tv show. We're about 4 or 5 episodes behind but it's a fun show so I enjoy a good mini marathon
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My perfect Christmas would be waking up not too early but not too late to a picture perfect snowy morning. Me, J & S would bundle up and take Odin for a brisk walk, maybe down as far as the beach. A snowball fight.

Back home to a hot drink, cooked breakfast. The lights on on the trees and opening presents.

A big Christmas lunch, roast turkey with all the trimmings. Christmas pudding.

An afternoon spent watching movies and/or playing board games. Eating chocolates and cookies and mince pies.

A good play session before bed.
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I am not religious and I don't partake in any kind of religious worship. But there's one thing guaranteed to get me into a church once or twice a year, and that's a Christmas Carol service. I think I've mentioned my love for Christmas and yes, carols are another one of the things I love.

I don't subscribe to the religious/birth of jesus aspect of Christmas - or any of the other many festivals and celebrations by different faiths at this time of year - but I enjoy the family aspect. I certainly appreciate the pagan idea of celebrating the days getting longer.

This year there's the Carols by a Thousand Candles concert on the 14th at Bangor Cathedral and then sometimes as well I will attend the midnight mass on Christmas Eve.

My favourite carols? Hmm in no particular order we have
Good King Wenceslas
The First Noel
Angels From The Realms Of Glory
Holly and Ivy
It Came Upon The Midnight Clear
O Come, O Come Emmannuel
Ding Dong Merrily On High
God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen
In The Bleak Midwinter
Away In A Manger
O Little Town Of Bethelehem
Once In Royal David's City
O Come All Ye Faithful
Hark! The Herald Angels Sing
Silent Night

And now I feel the need to pop on one of our many Christmas CDs...
lucymorningstar: (Brand New)
I like food. This is not news to anyone. I especially like food at Christmas. I love cooking up the big Christmas Day lunch - roast turkey, pigs in blankets, roast potatoes, mashed potatoes, vegetables... all the trimmings.

But my favourite Christmas foods have to be the desserts. I am a sucker for a warm mince pie with cream or custard. Or some Christmas pudding with brandy butter or cream. A nice slice of Christmas Cake or Yule Log or Dundee Cake.

Then there's all the boxes of biscuits and chocolates that we invariably end up with every year. We buy ourselves maybe one or two then we end up getting gifted some. And every year we say 'right, we're not buying anything this year' and yet we still do... and we end up with a ridiculous amount of Roses, Quality Street, Celebrations and so on.
Not to mention chocolates on the Christmas tree. Candy canes on the Christmas tree.

This is by no means a complaint because I LOVE it, just an observation of one of the many things I love about Christmas!
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I hate the 'What do you want for Christmas?' question. There's not really a whole lot I actually want and I much prefer buying presents than receiving them. I've updated my amazon wish list and sent it to my brother and sisters but I... the whole idea of being brought something for the sake of it just bugs me.

Don't get me wrong. I LOVE Christmas. I am a huge fan of Christmas, love everything about it. I especially love giving presents, watching people unwrap them. I'm weird, I know and I always end up getting given stuff I adore but I don't like asking for things. I can't explain it but it makes me feel a little weird.

So for J I've got him the aviator shades he's had his eye on for a while. I've got S a wine and cheese tasting experience (and for her birthday which is on the 28th a leather jacket I think she'll look amazing in).
My parents have mentioned wanting to get their couch re-upholstered so I think that's going to be their gift from us.
My neices and nephews are easy to buy for and have provided me with a nice list of books/games/clothes/etc that they want.
So that really just leaves my siblings to buy for!
lucymorningstar: (Coulson)
I have loved Stargate since the 90s. I fell in love with Daniel Jackson pretty much the first time we met him onscreen. I wasn't much of a fan of Jack O'Neill but then Stargate SG1 happened and OK, he was basically a completely different character than in the movie. Also there was the whole Richard Dean Anderson factor and I've loved him since the 80s... oh MacGyver. Be still my beating heart.

Stargate SG1 was love at first watch. I was still in love with Daniel Jackson. I got used to Richard Dean Anderson and Michael Shanks very quickly and my love for Michael Shanks as Daniel soon exceeded my love for James Spader as Daniel. I fell in love with Jack O'Neill for the first time. And Samantha Carter.

I discovered this summer something called fanfiction. Now fanfiction, for anyone who doesn't know is defined as fiction written by a fan of, and featuring characters from, a particular TV series, film, etc.
And specifically I found and started reading fanfiction about Stargate SG1 and Stargate Atlantis.

I was also thrilled to discover that I wasn't the only person out there who thought that maybe Jack and Daniel were in a romantic/sexual relationship wiht each other. In fact there were thousands of stories about it. The same went for John Sheppard/Rodney McKay.
And pretty much every pairing or moresome that you can think of.

Hello new obsession!
lucymorningstar: (McKay)

Happy birthday [profile] evilgrins
lucymorningstar: (McKay)
J, S & I have a standing date night most Fridays - we have some food and then we go to the cinema. We're all big fans and I swear the local cinema has seats reserved for us, or should at the very least haha. There's been some awesome films released this year and some more still coming in the next few weeks that I'm excited about!

I think my favourites of the year so far are Fantastic Beats And Where To Find Them, Arrival, Doctor Strange, Inferno, Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children, Batman v Superman: Dawn of Justice, Suicide Squad, Star Trek: Beyond, Ghostbusters, Independence Day: Resurgence, X-Men: Apocalypse, Captain America: Civil War, London Has Fallen and Deadpool.

There's definitely a pattern emerging there and I'm loving how science-fiction and superheroes are still so popular and that the trend continues. Though with both DC and Marvel's plans for the next couple of years I don't think I have to worry!

And then of course... next month there's Rogue One which I am ridiculously excited for! I don't think there are words to express my excitement!
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One of my favourite songs is Bryan Adams - Summer of 69.

It's a song that always makes me smile and I always end up singing along and dancing around when I listen to it. Its a proper mood lifter. I know it's not very cool or anything but I love most of Bryan Adams music. He's probably one of my favourite musicans and I like how you never hear scandals or anything about him. He always comes across as being pretty down to earth and normal, you don't hear 'news' about him having rockstar demands or tantrums.

Like a lot of people my age I first heard his music in the 90s when Everything I Do I Do It For You was at number 1 for like 10 years. I got the Waking Up The Neighbours album on casette tape for Christmas that year and then I got his other stuff out the library and copied it. HOW 90s does that sound now?

I'm a fan of his photography and I keep meaning to get the books of his works. I wonder if it's too late to mention it to Santa. I understand he does humanitarian work too which is something else I haven't looked into yet but would like to. I should make a note of it in my journal to look it up.

A quick google though says he's got two kids with stupid names so I guess he's not completely perfect haha
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I'm not Welsh but I've lived here for the last almost 7 years and it's definitely become my home. I can't imagine livng anywhere else anymore. J isn't Welsh but S is - although she's originally from Cardiff which is down on the south and we're up at the north west. She loves it here, and J&S actually settled here for her job. And then I moved in. And fell in love with the country. It's just so beautiful and welcoming and there's loads of random reasons too

Castles. Beaches. Mountains. Valleys. Lakes. Forts. The scenery is just breathtaking.

It's kind of lame but I love Welsh music. A Welsh male voice choir can send shivers down my spine and bring a tear to my eye. And y'know, there's Tom Jones and Katherine Jenkins and Charlotte Church and Shirley Bassey and Stereophonics.
Yes, I'm aware my music taste is a little insane. I'm currently listening to Dusty Springfield, so yeah.

Welsh rarebit. Or, as you'll probably call it cheese on toast. or grilled cheese. Hey, I never said this was a sensible list!

Dragons. Even our flag has a dragon on it and you can't argue with a dragon...

The language and accent. I only speak a little bit of Welsh but I'm definitely picking up the accent. I love how lilting and rhythmtic it is. The language itself is beautiful and ancient and complex and poetic.

Pretty sure S would kill me if I didn't include Rugby on the list. I'm not a fan but she adores it and is a passionate supporter of Cardiff RFC - she'll also support Bangor RFC too.
J's more of a football fan though and has taken to supporting our local football team.
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In my group session last night, we were talking about how with all the crap that goes on - in our brains, in our lives, in the world around us and in the world in general - and how it's really easy to get lost in the negativity and how we get caught in a dark feedback cycle which really isn't very easy to break. And we talked about how important it is to look after ourselves, to take the time to do things for us, to do the things we like, the things we enjoy, the things that make us feel better. How self-care is good for us.

Being me, I went and made a Self Care spread in my journal, listing out some of the things I can do for myself when I start to feel stressed and overwhelmed. My top items are:

  • go for a walk

  • play with the dog and/or cats

  • do some yoga

  • take a nap

  • dance

  • take a bath

  • have a massage

  • buy fresh flowers

  • listen to some music

  • bake

  • What do you do for yourself to help combat stress? What are your favourite self-care routines?
lucymorningstar: (Harry)
Today has been a very good day, especially food wise.

I spent this afternoon baking chocolate fudge cupcakes and the kitchen smelled wonderful. S was very happy because she loves chocolate cupcakes and she just kept hanging around the kitchen like a kid. I even let her lick the spoon haha

And then this evening I made macaroni cheese. My own special recipe using mustard, bacon and tomatoes. J loves it and was literally poking me while it was cooking, asking how long it was going to take. Then the poking lead to tickling and S joined in and really they were lucky dinner didn't get burned ;)

I thought though that I would share my recipe because I'm nice like that and everyone deserves to try it because it's amazing!

Macaroni Cheese with Bacon and Tomatoes

240g elbow macaroni
100g smoked bacon lardons
2 onions, peeled and finely diced
2 tomatoes, chopped
2 cloves garlic, peeled and finely diced
40g butter
40g flour
1/2 teaspoon Dijon Mustard
450ml milk
150g grated mature Cheddar cheese (plus extra for the topping)
salt and pepper to taste

Pre-heat oven to 200C/400F/Gas mark 6.
Boil macaroni in salted water and drain. Add cold water and drain again. Set to one side
Add the bacon lardons, onion, tomatoes and garlic to a frying pan and sauté over a medium heat until the bacon is crisp and the tomatoes and onions are cooked.
Add the bacon, tomato and onion mix to the cooked macaroni and mix well. Spoon the macaroni and bacon mixture into a buttered oven proof dish.
To make the sauce: melt the butter then add the flour and mustard powder and mix well. Add the milk gradually, beating well, and then simmer over a low heat until you have a thick sauce. Add the grated Cheddar cheese and mix until melted, then season to taste with salt and pepper.
Pour the sauce over the macaroni mixture, scatter some extra grated cheese over the top and bake in pre-heated oven for 15 to 20 minutes until golden brown and bubbling.


I'm Lucy, a 30-something woman who is trying to figure out this whole 'life' thing.

I'm bisexual and poly, living in North Wales with my partners J&S. I'm a home maker, love to bake and cook, and am a huge sci-fi fan. I'm also a little obsessed with journals/planners right now.

I haved lived for so long under the shadow of a number of mental health diagnoses, letting them define me rather than just be part of me. For too long I've been "Lucy the Schizo" and I want to find out who 'Lucy' is

Welcome aboard my journey. I'm glad you're here and looking forward to getting to know you as we get to know me!

♥ Current Obsessions ♥
Aliens. Angels. Atlantis. Bullet Journals. Cryptozoology. Doctor Who. German. Lucifer. MacGyver 2016. Marvel. Maths. Mythology. Space. Star Wars. Time travel


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