lucymorningstar: (#teamsteve)
As a bisexual woman in a bdsm poly relationship, it's safe to say that Livejournal is making me feel very uncomfortable right now. It's not a place I feel safe to be able to be me and it's not a place that makes me feel welcome.

I don't have a paid account so I'm not giving them money but I'm still not sure it's somewhere I want to give my business too. I don't know whether to just delete my journal and stay only at dreamwidth, or 'wait and see what happens' and just keep crossposting.

I'm also not sure 5am in a third night of not sleeping is the right time to try and make this decision! Oh how I wish caffeine actually worked in the expected manner.

For anyone reading this on LJ (since it's crossposting) who wants to add me on DW, I'm lucymorningstar on DW as well so please feel free :)
lucymorningstar: (Lucifer)
I'm starting to think about my goals for January, about what I want to achieve.

The main thing will be finding a new routine with J being home all the time, him working out what he's going to do and me learning to work around him being here. He's good at understanding I have a routine and I'm hoping he's not going to interrupt.

I want to find a proper blogging and commenting schedule.

I want to do a full de-clutter of the house... sort out things like paperwork, clothing, towels, bedding etc. All the little things that keep getting forgotten. Start the new year with a good clear out.

I want to read one book.
lucymorningstar: (Elephant)
It would appear that every post I've made in the last month I've managed to set as keeping private rather than public/showing everyone. I am such an idiot. I'm going to go through them and change the visibility so I'm sorry if I end up flooding your flists!

In other news, it's Saturday, it's raining and I've got an upset stomach. S is feeling queasy too so we don't know if it's a bug or something we ate last night. J's gone and done grocery shopping, got us both some ginger tea and now we're curled up watching the new Lethal Weapon tv show. We're about 4 or 5 episodes behind but it's a fun show so I enjoy a good mini marathon
lucymorningstar: (John)
Good afternoon!

It's a lovely warm day here in North Wales, and I'm enjoying a spot of sun in my garden. I have a cat stretched out on my lap, J is doing some gardening (strange man, actually enjoys it) and S is doing one of her Sudoku puzzles (strange woman, actually enjoys them)

I feel like I might be starting to fight my way out of the darkness. I can still feel it pulling on my ankles but I'm mostly reaching for the surface. Afternoons like this help. I also managed to conquer my inbox and finish my to-do list. It's a pretty big list but a lot of it is a list of ebay shops that I'd like to check out and some money off codes and stuff.

The ebay shops are all for planning stickers. Have I mentioned recently my love for planners and organisers and the bullet journal system? My Leuchttrum dotgrid journal came in the mail this week but I don't want to use it yet until I'm completely happy with how I'm doing it. I'm just using a cheap grid notebook with a faux leather cover. I'm mostly happy with my collections, my monthly/weekly/daily spreads but it's mostly just refining them. I've also been watching a metric ton of planwithme videos on youtube and strangely I find them incredibly relaxing and calming, but it's also made me want to do that style of planning with the kits and so I kind of ordered myself a MAMBI Happy Planner but it's on back-order.
When I actually set up properly, I'll totally take pictures and stuff and share how I'm using it. I'm not creative or artistic and I have crap handwriting so mine don't look anywhere near as awesome as some of the ones I see but I'm trying really hard not to compare myself. I should be proud of what I'm creating!

I've started making a draft of the post about discipline vs punishment and I'm hoping to get that posted later this evening. Although J is talking about firing up the barbecue if the weather stays this could so that's always fun too!
lucymorningstar: (Black Widow)
This is more just a reference for me, ideas for some topics to blog about over the coming days. I've found some different 30 day topic things, one of which I'll start in May but for then... hmmmm


  • Talking about the diagnoses process

  • Polygamy, how I met J&S and how our relationship works

  • [personal profile] xxmadsenxx asked about the difference between discipline and punishment

  • Iggles, penpals and swaps



Hmm what else... anyone have anything they'd like to hear/see me talk about?

Edit:
  • [personal profile] ashmedai asked "What are your pet peeves about the misconceptions many people have about the lifestyle? What stereotypes or false ideas the media portrays would you most like to clear up?

    What attracted you to the lifestyle? Was it a sudden discovery, or were you always aware, i.e., were there early indicators?"
lucymorningstar: (McKay)
I somehow thought this journaling/blogging thing would be easy. It's actually really not. I'm sitting here racking my brains for something to talk about, something vaguely interesting.

I can't think of a thing!
Um.. anyone have any questions that I could answer for future posts?
Where do you get your inspiration for posts?

I could tell you that my thighs are killing me after going for a run with S earlier this afternoon. Or the fun we've been having together as it's Easter break and she's off work this week. *winkwink nudgenudge*
That's not to say she doesn't still have a mountain of paperwork to get through.

Or the colleague of hers that saw us together and from the look of shock and horror on her face, clearly now must think S is cheating on J. Apparently the age-gap between them is enough of a talking point among the faculty... I think she's actually looking forward to going back to hear the gossip that will be doing the rounds that she was seen out with another woman!

I'm listening to Avenged Sevenfold for what feels like the first time in forever and I'd forgotten how much I enjoy their music. And damn is M Shadows a fine piece of ass.

I spent this morning doing some dusting around the flat, then with S pouting at me to bake a cake. She's not evil enough to order me to make a cake when she's put me on a diet - she's nowhere near that cruel - just asked me if I'd make the Green Velvet Cheesecake that I made for St Patrick's Day because she really liked it and... how exactly am I supposed to resist that?
So that's chilling in the fridge and I'm sulking because I don't know if I'm going to be allowed any. Though, with J pouting at her too, I suspect S will relent! :D

I'm in the mood to watch something but I'm not sure what. Lucifer wasn't on last night so that's out. I might poke Netflix and see what it throws out at me. Or see what J or S want to watch.

Croeso!

I'm Lucy, a 30-something woman who is trying to figure out this whole 'life' thing.

I'm bisexual and poly, living in North Wales with my partners J&S. I'm a home maker, love to bake and cook, and am a huge sci-fi fan. I'm also a little obsessed with journals/planners right now.

I haved lived for so long under the shadow of a number of mental health diagnoses, letting them define me rather than just be part of me. For too long I've been "Lucy the Schizo" and I want to find out who 'Lucy' is

Welcome aboard my journey. I'm glad you're here and looking forward to getting to know you as we get to know me!

♥ Current Obsessions ♥
Aliens. Angels. Atlantis. Bullet Journals. Cryptozoology. Doctor Who. German. Lucifer. MacGyver 2016. Marvel. Maths. Mythology. Space. Star Wars. Time travel

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