lucymorningstar: (Brand New)
I've been trying to watch NCIS with J this morning but it's not be overly successful. I've been having some auditory issues, not hearing the bitch who attacks me or the kid who wants to play, more just white noise buzzing. and that makes it really difficult to concentrate on both the TV and on what J's been saying to me. J's confirmed that he can't hear it so it's most likely in my head. I'm actually hopping it's just a hallucination and not a physical problem with my ears. It's not constant though so I guess it's psychological. It's fucking annoying though!

Could it be interesting to write a post about my auditory hallucinations?

It's a shame because I've been enjoying NCIS. It's our first time watching it and we saw like 5 episodes last week. I'm starting to see why S loves these 'heres a dead body lets find out what happened to it' shows.
Gibbs. He's a bit of a bastard, isn't he? Very strange way of showing he cares and I bet he's got some big tragedy he's hiding that's stopping him from letting people in. He's also utterly gorgeous
Tony. Can we say favourite character? He's so cute and funny and yet really good at what he does and I want to do all kinds of filthy things to/with him!
Kate. I don't like her at all. She's so stuck up and I hate how she treats Tony.
Ducky. Reminds me of my dad, the way he's always got these stories and random facts about everything.
Abby. I'm not quite sure what I make of Abby. She's very unique isn't she? J says her exuberance and love reminds him of me <3

Instead of watching NCIS 1x06 I did some really geeky online things. I normally log all the TV and movies that I watch using Trakt and Letterboxd but I've been really slack at keeping up with it the last month or so. J's been listing still and I wrote most things down in my bujo so I've brought them up to date as much as I could.

Is it weird that I still refer to J as... well... J, considering I know some of you guys read his DW? (he's [personal profile] jackjanderson for anyone who doesn't know) so it's not like you don't know he's called Jack. And he uses Sam's name when he talks about her in his posts but I still refer to her as S here.
I guess I've just got used to using J&S when I write about them because I've been doing it for so long.
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My J makes me laugh sometimes. I've said before how he's bored and trying to find a new hobby and he seems to be trying to do all of them all at the same time. And possibly just stalking me around the internet.

He's brushing up on his German on Duolingo, he's still futzing around with his blog, he's signed up to do a psychology course on line, he's trying out bujoing... he's even talked about trying to learn to knit. S has given him a list of jobs to do round the house and we're talking about redecorating the bedroom and having a new kitchen. He's also wanting to turn the other of the boxrooms into his own lttle 'study' like I've got. He's definitely enjoying spending time reading and doing crosswords though and the dogs are really loving having him to play with all the time.

He's a big dork and I really do love him.

I'm reading this book at the moment called Whoniverse: An Unofficial Planet-By-Planet Guide to the World of the Doctor from Gallifrey to Skaro by Lance Parkin and it's making me want to do a Doctor Who rewatch. Definitely 'new' Who but I'm also really tempted to go back and watch some 'classic' Who as well, start with Hartnell and work my way forwards in time. I know a lot of Patrick Troughton's stuff has been lost but rewatching Tom Baker and Jon Pertwee and I don't think I've ever gone back and rewatched Sylvester McCoy's stuff from the 80s

I think I need a Doctor Who icon!
lucymorningstar: (Elephant)
It would appear that every post I've made in the last month I've managed to set as keeping private rather than public/showing everyone. I am such an idiot. I'm going to go through them and change the visibility so I'm sorry if I end up flooding your flists!

In other news, it's Saturday, it's raining and I've got an upset stomach. S is feeling queasy too so we don't know if it's a bug or something we ate last night. J's gone and done grocery shopping, got us both some ginger tea and now we're curled up watching the new Lethal Weapon tv show. We're about 4 or 5 episodes behind but it's a fun show so I enjoy a good mini marathon
lucymorningstar: (Coulson)
I have loved Stargate since the 90s. I fell in love with Daniel Jackson pretty much the first time we met him onscreen. I wasn't much of a fan of Jack O'Neill but then Stargate SG1 happened and OK, he was basically a completely different character than in the movie. Also there was the whole Richard Dean Anderson factor and I've loved him since the 80s... oh MacGyver. Be still my beating heart.

Stargate SG1 was love at first watch. I was still in love with Daniel Jackson. I got used to Richard Dean Anderson and Michael Shanks very quickly and my love for Michael Shanks as Daniel soon exceeded my love for James Spader as Daniel. I fell in love with Jack O'Neill for the first time. And Samantha Carter.

I discovered this summer something called fanfiction. Now fanfiction, for anyone who doesn't know is defined as fiction written by a fan of, and featuring characters from, a particular TV series, film, etc.
And specifically I found and started reading fanfiction about Stargate SG1 and Stargate Atlantis.

I was also thrilled to discover that I wasn't the only person out there who thought that maybe Jack and Daniel were in a romantic/sexual relationship wiht each other. In fact there were thousands of stories about it. The same went for John Sheppard/Rodney McKay.
And pretty much every pairing or moresome that you can think of.

Hello new obsession!

Beef Stew

Nov. 5th, 2016 04:20 pm
lucymorningstar: (Blue)
I wish you guys could smell my kitchen right now, or anywhere in my house because it's mouthwatering. I've had a beef stew in the oven for the last couple of hours, it's still got about an hour to go. The cats and dog are both sitting staring through the kitchen door and I'm half surprised that J isnt sitting there with them too

He keeps telling us how good it smells and how hungry it's making him. I swear if he doesn't let up, S is gonna spank him one haha

Mind, he was nicely Dominant this morning. They both were. But that's a different story that has nothing to do with my beef stew.

It's a pretty simple dish, not much prep... just a nice, long, slow, cooking process.
You start with softening some celery, some onion, bay and thyme in butter and vegetable oil. Stir in some flour, some tomato puree, beef stock cubes and (my secret ingredient) worcestershire sauce.
Gradually stir in boiling water, and the stewing beef and bring to a gentle simmer
Cover and pop in the oven (gas mark 3) for 2 and a half hours.
I've just taken off the lid and put it back in the oven - in about 45 minutes to an hour the beef will be really tender and sauce will be thick and it will be perfect.

Until then, I catch up on another episode of Frequency on Netflix
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I'm pleased to report my ankle is healed and I'm back on my feet. I've spent a lot of time cuddled up with the cats and watching some of the new TV shows that have started this season. There's quite a few really good ones that have got me all excited! :)

I think Frequency, Lethal Weapon and The Exorcist are among my favourites. And, as much as I really hate to admit it? I'm really enjoying the new MacGyver. S wanted to watch it to see how they weave the science and engineering into the storyline and I ended up watching it and... yeah, it's ok. That kid is no Richard Dean Anderson and it's not my MacyGyver but it's watchable.

But that's not what I opened up this 'post an entry' to talk about. It was either going to start with that or planwithme videos on Youtube because I've also been spending a lot of time playing catchup on those. They're so relaxing. It's not my style of planning, I tried it and it doesn't work for me. I'm definitely sticking with my bujo but there's something calming and relaxing and hynotic about watching people plan their weeks out and putting down stickers. I don't know how or why but it is!

I'm going as off topic as a MacGyver voiceover here - stop me if I start telling tales about my grandather! LOL

I actually wanted to talk about something I don't understand. Clowns. Or, why people are scared of them. I don't get it. I don't get it at all. It's just a guy in some face paint, a wig, some colourful clothing and big shoes. They're supposed to be funny - has no-one ever been to a circus and watched their routines? Or been squirted in the face with water from a plastic flower?
It's all just basic slapstick comedy

Maybe it's the fact my brain is wired differently from 'normal' but I really don't associate them with fear but with laughter. I get that there's scary clowns in horror movies but... those aren't real. They're stories. They're fictional.

And I thought I was the one with the tenuous grip on reality...

Self Care

Oct. 9th, 2016 03:02 pm
lucymorningstar: (#teamsteve)
I have an ouchie. I've no idea how I've done it* but I've sprained my ankle - not badly just enough that it's aching and I can't put enough weight on it. Spent a couple of hours in A&E this morning, got it x-rayed to check it wasn't broken. They've strapped it up, given me some painkillers and instructed me to rest it for a few days.

Which is how I'm sitting on the couch with my foot up on a stool. S made us a roast chicken dinner with all the trimmings which was delicious. And now we're all curled up on the couch, with mugs of tea, under nice warm blankets with purring cats (and Odin flopped down over J's feet) and we're trying out some of the new season tv shows.

Some are hits, some are misses but it's fun and it's one of my favourite ways to spend time. Of course, S got all cranky with some of the science of time travel in Timeless. Although we do all agree that Hayley Atwell has amazing ass and tits in Conviction.

So yes, despite my ankle hurting, I'm focusing on the positive. I'm warm, I'm comfy, I'm snuggled up under blankets with the people I love, I have apple and cinnamon tea and I'm spending an afternoon watching TV... what's not to enjoy about that?

* Actually, I know exactly what I've done to it. J's got himself all interested in predicament bondage...and this is not a complaint because that is just fun! But when we were playing this morning, I wobbled a little too much and went over on my ankle. Oops!
lucymorningstar: (Lucifer Beach Wings)
I do not like sleeping alone. We have this lovely huge bed but last night it seemed some vast expanse of emptiness. I kept rolling over and there was no-one pressed up against me, no-one to cuddle up to. It took me ages over the last couple of weeks to get used to mostly just having J in the bed so being on my own last night was horrible. And there's still two more nights of it.

Monday will come soon enough though and I will have my bed back the way I like it, even if it's only for one night before S is back to Manchester.

I should be grateful though.
We have a comfortable enough life that S is able to just whisk J away for their anniversary.
We have this huge, comfortable bed.
And I have the two best people in the world to share it with.
I have family who understand that it's not necessarily safe for me to be left alone for too long - and who don't mind 'babysitting' me for the weekend.
I'm spending quality time with my little sister enjoying some fun movies and tv shows, and sampling some of the best delivery service the town provides.

Life is good. I shouldn't complain - but I do miss J&S something fierce!
lucymorningstar: (Brand New)
I think I need to speak to my doctor about my sleep again - as you can see, it's almost 1am and I'm wide awake. If current rouine is to be expected, I'll crash out around 01:45 and sleep really hard until about 5:30. And then spend most of the day feeling very groggy and tired and lethargic. It's been about a week now and I'm unhappy about it. Possibly an adjustment in dosage of something or other.

I've taken to sleeping in what gets designated as "my" room - second largest of the bedrooms and with staircase heading up to loft conversion - rather than our room. I don't want my lack of sleep disturbing J or S. Although 80% of the time, when I wake up, one of them - usually S - will be in the bed with me.

Lets see, what else is going on?

Watching NCIS earlier and it really is worth noting that Mark Harmon is a very attractive man. He's starting to look his age, but it's not detracting from his handsomeness.
Mark Weatherley, on the other hand, is not aging well. Although the older he gets, the more genius the casting of Robert Wagner as DiNozzo Snr is because WOW the resemblance is remarkable.
I've noticed that I've missed a couple of seasons of NCIS: Los Angeles and that there's an NCIS: New Orleans now as well, so I might make watching those a summer project.

Summer is always strange around here. We're hitting the time of year where the university students all go home for the summer but the tourists haven't descended yet. It's starting like a bit of a ghost town and it's quite spooky. It'll be like it another 6 weeks or so, then things will be insane in August. I like this time of year though because S basically takes these 6 weeks off. Come August, she'll be busy with organisation, prep, research, locking herself in the lab and doing stuff. But these 6 weeks, she just kicks back and enjoys her summer. J normally takes some time off too and we're talking about going away somewhere, maybe just a long weekend, maybe a week.

We need to get to see the new X Men movie.

I've found a couple of 30-day exercise challenges that I might try in June. My weight is coming down slowly and I always find healthy eating easier in the warmer weather.
So there's a 30-day ab challenge full of sit ups, crunches, leg raises and planks - and I need to work out the difference between a sit up and a crunch.
And there's a 30 day beginner fitness one full of lunges, leg raises, wall sits, squats, jumping jacks and other stuff I've never heard of so wil have to google.
I've also been looking at the beginner routine from Blogilates on Youtube.

Speaking of Youtube, I am so completely in love with watching Plan With Me videos. I may have mentioned this before. But it's basically just videos of people with their planners and sticker kits and doing their planning for the week ahead. There's something really calming and relaxing about it.
There's part of me that would love to do something like that but I am so not prepared to pay the price of that style of planner and throw in the cost of the sticker kits and it starts getting ridiculous

So I'll be sticking to my bullet journal. I've actually now bought myself a purple A5 Moleskine for doing it and some I think they're Inkmate pens. Hopefully the postman will bring them Tuesday so I can get everything set up in there before June properly starts on Wednesday. I've kept up with it for the whole of May, I've worked out what layouts and collections I like/work for me - I don't like stickers or embellishments, just nice and neat and functional. Mine isn't all artsy and creative like some of the really pretty ones you see out there but... well, why should I let that stop me doing what works for me?

I said about 30 day challenges. I might even get round to carrying on with that 30 day blog one. I thought about writing the answer to the next one in this post but it's a pretty depressing topic so I don't think I will. I'll answer that tomorrow - might need to figure out how to do one of those 'read the rest behind here' things because it's about suicide and I don't want to trigger anyone by them not scrolling/skipping past it.
lucymorningstar: (Blue)
I knew that they were rebooting MacGyver and that the idea of it horrified me. And then today I saw the trailer for the new show that starts this year. I would like to say a huge NOPE. The nopest nope that ever noped. I think I managed about 20 seconds of the trailer before turning it off.

I can see why they've picked the kid they have.
He's no Richard Dean Anderson though.

I don't get how they're going to make something so quintesessetially 80s work today. And I think I'd have preferred something with Anderson in it. Like Mac still at the Fenix Foundation but more of a Pete Thornton character and maybe training new recruit/s

IT's not going to be the same at all though
lucymorningstar: (McKay)
I somehow thought this journaling/blogging thing would be easy. It's actually really not. I'm sitting here racking my brains for something to talk about, something vaguely interesting.

I can't think of a thing!
Um.. anyone have any questions that I could answer for future posts?
Where do you get your inspiration for posts?

I could tell you that my thighs are killing me after going for a run with S earlier this afternoon. Or the fun we've been having together as it's Easter break and she's off work this week. *winkwink nudgenudge*
That's not to say she doesn't still have a mountain of paperwork to get through.

Or the colleague of hers that saw us together and from the look of shock and horror on her face, clearly now must think S is cheating on J. Apparently the age-gap between them is enough of a talking point among the faculty... I think she's actually looking forward to going back to hear the gossip that will be doing the rounds that she was seen out with another woman!

I'm listening to Avenged Sevenfold for what feels like the first time in forever and I'd forgotten how much I enjoy their music. And damn is M Shadows a fine piece of ass.

I spent this morning doing some dusting around the flat, then with S pouting at me to bake a cake. She's not evil enough to order me to make a cake when she's put me on a diet - she's nowhere near that cruel - just asked me if I'd make the Green Velvet Cheesecake that I made for St Patrick's Day because she really liked it and... how exactly am I supposed to resist that?
So that's chilling in the fridge and I'm sulking because I don't know if I'm going to be allowed any. Though, with J pouting at her too, I suspect S will relent! :D

I'm in the mood to watch something but I'm not sure what. Lucifer wasn't on last night so that's out. I might poke Netflix and see what it throws out at me. Or see what J or S want to watch.

Croeso!

I'm Lucy, a 30-something woman who is trying to figure out this whole 'life' thing.

I'm bisexual and poly, living in North Wales with my partners J&S. I'm a home maker, love to bake and cook, and am a huge sci-fi fan. I'm also a little obsessed with journals/planners right now.

I haved lived for so long under the shadow of a number of mental health diagnoses, letting them define me rather than just be part of me. For too long I've been "Lucy the Schizo" and I want to find out who 'Lucy' is
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Welcome aboard my journey. I'm glad you're here and looking forward to getting to know you as we get to know me!

♥ Current Obsessions ♥
Aliens. Angels. Bullet Journals. Cryptozoology. Dinosaurs. Doctor Who. Fanfiction. Knitting. Marvel. Space. Time travel. Wonder Woman.

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