lucymorningstar: (Lucifer)
S was singing this song this morning ago (she heard it on the radio in the shower) and it is still rattling around in my head. I don't even like it and it's driving me crazy! So, in the name of earworms, I thought I'd be nice enough to pass it on


Dec. 23rd, 2016 06:40 pm
lucymorningstar: (Elephant)
Other than a lot of Christmas music - both carols and pop music - I seem to have been listening to a lot of classic rock and oldies this month. It's been a very bizarre mixture.

Christmas music wise from classical to Mariah Carey, The Pogues, Wham!, Wizzard, Slade, Chris Rea, Band Aid, Cliff Richard, Mud, Boney M, Jona Lewie, Shakin' Stevens, Paul McCartney, Elvis, Bing Crosby, Doris Day, Frank Sinatra, East 17.

And then the non-Christmas music has been a lot of The Eagles, Deep Purple, The Doors, Bobby Darin, Connie Francis, The Everley Brothers, Bill Haley...

I definitely have an eclectic taste in music, that's for sure!
lucymorningstar: (Default)
I am currently stretched out on the sofa, listening to George Michael singing Last Christmas. I have the house to myself - J&S are at work and I've finished all my chores for the day so I have the afternoon to do as I please. I'm warm, the fire is on and Odin is stretched out asleep in front of it. He's dreaming, back legs twitching and making some interesting noises. Aslan is curled up on my feet and Jadis is on the back of the sofa. They're both asleep too.

I keep trying to read but I'm finding myself far too easily distracted for that. I'm thinking of maybe joining them in a nap. But I'm also tempted to put on a movie - Harry Potter, maybe - or get out the cards and play some solitare.
lucymorningstar: (Default)
I am not religious and I don't partake in any kind of religious worship. But there's one thing guaranteed to get me into a church once or twice a year, and that's a Christmas Carol service. I think I've mentioned my love for Christmas and yes, carols are another one of the things I love.

I don't subscribe to the religious/birth of jesus aspect of Christmas - or any of the other many festivals and celebrations by different faiths at this time of year - but I enjoy the family aspect. I certainly appreciate the pagan idea of celebrating the days getting longer.

This year there's the Carols by a Thousand Candles concert on the 14th at Bangor Cathedral and then sometimes as well I will attend the midnight mass on Christmas Eve.

My favourite carols? Hmm in no particular order we have
Good King Wenceslas
The First Noel
Angels From The Realms Of Glory
Holly and Ivy
It Came Upon The Midnight Clear
O Come, O Come Emmannuel
Ding Dong Merrily On High
God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen
In The Bleak Midwinter
Away In A Manger
O Little Town Of Bethelehem
Once In Royal David's City
O Come All Ye Faithful
Hark! The Herald Angels Sing
Silent Night

And now I feel the need to pop on one of our many Christmas CDs...
lucymorningstar: (Default)
One of my favourite songs is Bryan Adams - Summer of 69.

It's a song that always makes me smile and I always end up singing along and dancing around when I listen to it. Its a proper mood lifter. I know it's not very cool or anything but I love most of Bryan Adams music. He's probably one of my favourite musicans and I like how you never hear scandals or anything about him. He always comes across as being pretty down to earth and normal, you don't hear 'news' about him having rockstar demands or tantrums.

Like a lot of people my age I first heard his music in the 90s when Everything I Do I Do It For You was at number 1 for like 10 years. I got the Waking Up The Neighbours album on casette tape for Christmas that year and then I got his other stuff out the library and copied it. HOW 90s does that sound now?

I'm a fan of his photography and I keep meaning to get the books of his works. I wonder if it's too late to mention it to Santa. I understand he does humanitarian work too which is something else I haven't looked into yet but would like to. I should make a note of it in my journal to look it up.

A quick google though says he's got two kids with stupid names so I guess he's not completely perfect haha
lucymorningstar: (Black Widow)
There's only one problem with spending the best part of the late morning/early afternoon portion of today asleep. And that's the fact it's 3am and I'm wide awake. The realisation of it being 3am means I'm pressing play on the Matchbox Twenty song which I hadn't even thought of in years so there's that.

I've written something of a mini bio on my profile page but the more I try the more I realise I'm absolutely crap at writing those things - how much is enough information? How do I know if the nuggets I'm giving out are suitably interesting? It's also very possible I over-think the issue.
There's such a wide range of them I've seen out there - some people just listing adjectives and bullet points, and some people write in full on pargraphs. I can't quite decide which version I like.

In my last post, I actually used S's name. That's been edited now.


Apr. 23rd, 2016 08:57 am
lucymorningstar: (Black Widow)
I ended up having a soak in the tub last night, before curling up in bed and watching a couple of episodes of Arrow. I took a sleeping pill so I was able to sleep kind of ok, although I feel fuzzy and weird this morning.

I've done an online grocery shop which will be delivered tomorrow. It felt weird not going around the store with J - a lot less fun doing it that way! Cheaper too.

I'm currently curled up in bed still, eating chocolate granola, listening to some music and writing out my to-do list for today. I want to spend some time playing around with different layouts for weekly and monthly spreads in my bullet journal.
I also want to add a links page to my website over at

I'm actually going to recommend this song. It's called My Name Is Trouble by a band called Jess & The Bandits

Um. So a couple of you asked yesterday about what J's family know about us. J's family don't know about me. He had a very strained relationship with them anyway - he's the youngest and the black sheep in many ways. They disagreed with a lot of the choices he's made - they're very, proper, I guess. They flipped when he divorced his first wife. They never approved of S. His son from his first marriage is the only person who knows (that we know of)
S's close family - her dad and brother - know. Her dad mostly just laughed and said one person would never be enough for S to worry about!
My parents only know about J - and were worried enough about the age difference. J is only one years younger than my mum! My older brother and younger sisters knows, I don't know what my older sister knows.

We all decided between us so J's family not knowing about me doesn't bother me. It's more that I want to be there for him. I love him and he's hurting and I'm feeling helpless. I know there wasn't anything I could really do even if I was there but even so!
lucymorningstar: (John)
In my 'hello' post I described myself as a rock music fan but I don't think that's really completely accurate. Yes, I'm currently listening to Metallica and my favourite genre is 80s hair metal and my favourites include Aerosmith, Alice Cooper, Bon Jovi, Cinderella, Def Leppard, Guns N' Roses, Iron Maiden, Kiss, Metallica, Motley Crue, Ozzy Osbourne, Poison, Quireboys, Skid Row and Van Halen

But I think a much better way of wording it is that I'm a music fan. A good song is a good song is
a good song regardless of whether its rock or metal or punk or pop or country or whatever. Does it really matter what 'type' of music it is, other than 'music you like?'

Lately, I've been really liking P!nk's "Give Me A Reason", Little Mix's "Secret Love Song" and Justin Bieber's "Love Yourself"
And in a complete 180 to that my favourite song ever is probably Journey's "Don't Stop Believing"

Looking at what I've been 'scrobbling' since S set it up on my computer last wee, my most played artists include Beyonce, Katy Perry, Jessie J, P!nk, Spice Girls, AC/DC, Atomic Kitten, Bryan Adams, Rihanna and Adele. So if you just took that you'd think I was mostly into pop music... which I don't think I am. I just like music. I was poking around with some of the playlists on Spotify and there was a lot of those kinds of pop music which are fun to sing along to.
And now I'm listening to System Of A Down, so... y'know.
lucymorningstar: (McKay)
I somehow thought this journaling/blogging thing would be easy. It's actually really not. I'm sitting here racking my brains for something to talk about, something vaguely interesting.

I can't think of a thing!
Um.. anyone have any questions that I could answer for future posts?
Where do you get your inspiration for posts?

I could tell you that my thighs are killing me after going for a run with S earlier this afternoon. Or the fun we've been having together as it's Easter break and she's off work this week. *winkwink nudgenudge*
That's not to say she doesn't still have a mountain of paperwork to get through.

Or the colleague of hers that saw us together and from the look of shock and horror on her face, clearly now must think S is cheating on J. Apparently the age-gap between them is enough of a talking point among the faculty... I think she's actually looking forward to going back to hear the gossip that will be doing the rounds that she was seen out with another woman!

I'm listening to Avenged Sevenfold for what feels like the first time in forever and I'd forgotten how much I enjoy their music. And damn is M Shadows a fine piece of ass.

I spent this morning doing some dusting around the flat, then with S pouting at me to bake a cake. She's not evil enough to order me to make a cake when she's put me on a diet - she's nowhere near that cruel - just asked me if I'd make the Green Velvet Cheesecake that I made for St Patrick's Day because she really liked it and... how exactly am I supposed to resist that?
So that's chilling in the fridge and I'm sulking because I don't know if I'm going to be allowed any. Though, with J pouting at her too, I suspect S will relent! :D

I'm in the mood to watch something but I'm not sure what. Lucifer wasn't on last night so that's out. I might poke Netflix and see what it throws out at me. Or see what J or S want to watch.


Mar. 31st, 2016 03:21 pm
lucymorningstar: (Lucy aka me)
Hello everyone!

It felt really wonderful to log on this morning and see that people have added me! That people want to hear what I have to say. Although it's also a little unnerving in a way. Will I live up to being interesting?

I found it strange when writing the 'about me' post that I made to friending communities that the first thing I wrote about myself were my diagnoses. Can you imagine doing that in real life? Meeting someone, shaking their hand and saying "Hi, I'm Lucy. I'm a schizophrenic with ADHD and bipolar disorder!'
They'd look at me... well I was going to say strangely but then a lot of people do that anyway so it wouldn't be much of a difference really

I suppose it's different to actually introducing yourself, though, these posts. It's more a sales pitch in a way, isn't it? And my health is a large part of what make me who I am, so it is interesting that people understand that I have them. I am very much interested in finding out who I am outside of my diagnoses. You'd think by now I'd know who I am but I've always let these labels define me, rather than just... be. For too long I've been "Lucy the Schizo" and I want to find out who "Lucy the Person" is.

And welcome aboard my journey. I'm glad you're here and looking forward to getting to know you as we get to know me!

I am sitting in the room in our house known as 'the library' - it's basically a bedroom full of books, comfortable chairs and a desk. And a CD player. I'm listening to some Mendelssohn as I type this: A Midsummer Night's Dream - Overture if you're interested. I'm also thinking I need to a) cut my nails and b) learn to type. I have no idea where keys are and this is hard work. I don't know what to do with my other 6 fingers or my thumbs!

I've been setting up various accounts online. I now have a Twitter (@lucyshiningone) and a (lists! alphabetised!). I've heard about a to-do website called Habitica which sounds interesting so I think that might be my next stopping point.

What websites do you use on a regular basis/find useful?
Where can I learn to type?!


I'm Lucy, a 30-something woman who is trying to figure out this whole 'life' thing.

I'm bisexual and poly, living in North Wales with my partners J&S. I'm a home maker, love to bake and cook, and am a huge sci-fi fan. I'm also a little obsessed with journals/planners right now.

I haved lived for so long under the shadow of a number of mental health diagnoses, letting them define me rather than just be part of me. For too long I've been "Lucy the Schizo" and I want to find out who 'Lucy' is
Welcome aboard my journey. I'm glad you're here and looking forward to getting to know you as we get to know me!

♥ Current Obsessions ♥
Aliens. Angels. Bullet Journals. Cryptozoology. Dinosaurs. Doctor Who. Fanfiction. Knitting. Marvel. Space. Time travel. Wonder Woman.


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